Wednesday, August 13, 2008
good evenings peeps!
morning woke up at 8.30am and prepare for outing with frens.
tt got swimming so pack and pack happily =)
so 9.30 bus-ed to woodlands interchange and w8. ==" SO DAMN EARLY CAN?! we suppose to meet at 11am i 10am reached le. -.-
so i go Causeway point to play my PSP. -.- BURNOUT REVENGE!! woo~! nice game can? =D
JY go causeway point find mi then she no see my face nia hit my cap le LOL. wad if hit wrong person xD i sure ROFLMAO! WAHAHAHAKAKAKAS......
we go sing 1st cuz christina hafen come.. still making hair lol.
WALAN Eh. then JON ps US AGAIN!! last nite still say wad. 7AM go swim. i say i cnt wake up he say i lousy =x now LEI!! HUH!! LOL. see hu more lauya. xD lazy pigss.....
then christina come joined JY and mi. weird thing is.. my 1st tym and 2nd tym of KTV, is at the same place, same room no.! freaky eh. still got wad same i 4get lerx. STM ah..
Sang ALOOTTTSSSAAAA EMO song cuz feeling down this past weekss.. sang songs like "since you been gone ; When You're Gone ; Truly Madly Deeply ; and etc...." felt this songs are soo darn true.. reflect very true on mi. every single word. =\
After singing, go Mac makan. i no eat cuz pok le =( nidda work yea?
Talked alot sick things at mac luh. make me cnt think straight. as in.. my mind keep repeating all those sick things... -sick-
then walked to Christina house to slack and read some of her books.
din go swim cuz like no tym and the sun is BLAZING hot!
came home and undergo a regular routine by my mum. here is some INFAMOUS quotes:
1. when i go out : " Why u go out? Where u going? VERY RICH AH??"
2 when i stay at home : " Why are you at home!? Why Keep WASTING my ELECTRICTY? Electricity EXPENSIVE YOU KNOW??! "
3. and when use lappy till late : " WHY USE TILL SO LATE? USE TILL WAD TIME? ELECTRICITY NO NEED MONEY AH?! ARE YOU CHATTING? "
all this marks an epic war between mi and her. PLZ LA OLD WITCH. JUZ STFU AND GIMME SOME SPACE CAN? I DIE OFF LA! LIMME DIE! 1 LESS PPL USING UR PRECIOUS ELECTRICTY!
I TRIED TO SUICIDE ONCE. SADLY IT FAILED. I WILL GIVE IT A 2ND SHOT IF E NEED ARISE. thx to my dearest ean kor and other caring fwens who take sometime to console mi and make mi feel that im not alone and i shud not die that young but her incentical naggings really got under my skin and drive mi right to the walls.
NO. dun get me wrong. i dun condemn occasional naggings. BUT, to repeat same 3 lines every day and nite for.. ard... 5-6 YRS!?!?! dun u get tired of it at all? since u love to save $ to e extend, y dun i go somewhere where there is PEACE and TRANQUILITY? and i wun be a BURDEN to ur expensive, Never-ending bills? all this SUKS! srsly...
Sometimes u can be so nice.but do u really KNOW wad kids in this era wants? u claim to be my mother. some1 hu holds mi 9mths in ur womb. gave mi educations, food,clothings. but wad are those other things which can make mi feel like i haf a childhood?
im secretly laughed at for being a "country bumpkin" when i told others i nver went to Orchard, Bugis.. places where all other youths hang out. you made mi go home straight everyday after sch. but u too, at the same time make mi lose my identity among my frens. i cnt fit in cuz i duno wad they are saying. thats y i haf lil fwen in my life.
i tried to have a life in virtual world, hoping to make more fwens but in e end wad i get is buying Prepaid cards to feel the habit, and ur naggings. Yes, i haf to admit it's costly, but wad other methods can i make more fwens? low on self-esteem;confidence and felt that no1 in this world can you trust. I am lost, hopeless, and i'm falling deeper with every with your harsh words u use.
When i did well, u juz gave a meek compliment. When i did badly, u gave mi hell.
i am fighting back my tears as i am writing this down.
i am glad that i have frens like : Benson,Jason,Christina,Jie Ying,Ean kor,Celestine mei and Joyce among some others.
as humans, our lifespan is not long, it's also impossible to know every single people on Earth.
but by knowing u guys is fate. I hope during my life in Earth here, our friendship will never weaver. I believe that it will stay strong. Hope we can acheive it, =)
-THE END-
p.s i knew i love u b4 i met uLabels: the end
leavemeALONE;
